(Our Church Building in the Middle of the Woods)
Today I have been reminiscing about the many Christmases in
my life and about the fact that were away from our loved ones for the first
time ever.
The one I remember by far the most vividly as a child, was
the year I woke up in the night and snuck down the stairs to see if Santa had
come yet. "Yep" he'd come
alright! There was my fort Apache set
that I'd asked for. The soldiers and Indians, the horses - all of it! Ohhh, but now what? What was the thing about
if you peeked at a present, you wouldn't actually get it. I hurried back to bed
and worried. How would Santa know I had looked and seen my present? Well, he
knows if you've been good or bad - right? Should I go tell my parents and they
could make it all right with Santa? Maybe I was still good for this year - but
that would mean I was already bad for next. Oh, what to do, what to do. I
finally fell back to sleep and when the family got up I just went ahead as
usual and was thrilled with my Fort Apache.
Skip ahead many years and my first Christmas with my bride
of three months in our little apartment on the third floor of the
Eastcliff. We were so excited. We had
our own tree and I even remember what I got her. It was a pair of blue and
white spectator shoes. She loved them and was so pleased that I had picked out
something by myself that she just loved. (Of course, the fact that I was
working that year in the shoe department at Auerbach's Department store should
have given her a clue as to what it would be.)
Then there were the Christmases with our own children. Some
years there was more than others, but I think our kids would say they grew up
with some pretty good Christmases. I'll always remember the Christmas of the
skis. I was a skier and I thought my three oldest were old enough to learn. It
was expensive, but we planned ahead and they all three got all the gear. I was so excited for them!
Santa hid the skis out on the front porch and so the three
big kids couldn't find anything for them. The two younger ones had wrapped
gifts and they couldn't open them until the first three found theirs. Finally,
I gave them a clue and they all ran out to the front porch, with five year old,
David, following them. Seconds later, David came back in saying, "boring,
boring boring." I know it's on video and we can still watch it should you
want to, but the intensity of that "boring, boring, boring" defines
David and his life - the way He lived and loved everything to the fullest.
Now, that brings me to our worst Christmas, as Christmases
go. It will forever (hopefully) be all of our worst Christmases. We had just
lost our son, brother, uncle, husband and Daddy in a devastating car
accident. The usual Christmas rituals
and activities became a blur. However, now, as I look back on it, I realize
that it was by far the most spiritual and meaningful Christmas ever. We came to know that year what sacrifice
meant and what the life of the baby Jesus could mean to all of us. We
experienced miracles of healing and revelation that I cannot deny. I came to
know that God does live and that he did care for me and my family. I came to
understand that through the restored gospel there are heavenly angels that can
and do comfort and serve in time of need.
Now, today, brings about another type of Christmas. I have
the privilege of sharing it with just my Sweetheart and wife of forty-six
years. It's just the two of us here in the woods, in the strangest little cabin
you ever did see. We have a little 3 foot tree with lights and bows. There are
even a couple of presents under it. But by far the best is that I am here with
her, and we are both physically and mentally able to serve our Heavenly Father
at this time. I feel I have waited a
long time to serve a mission - and now I'm doing it! (And besides I like her
for a companion much more than some 19 year old doofus with smelly feet.)
Anyway, I want to end
by saying "Merry Christmas to you all.
Love each other this happy time of year and know that we are remembering
our pasts and the part you have all played.
The present, today and this next week we will be thinking of you and
please know we will be praying for us as a family in the future." Love, Dad
p.s. In case you wondered, my wife DID help with some of the
writing of my thoughts.